today I will meditate, later I will wonder why I haven't. the problem is fear. I know meditation isn't simply introspection. there is, I know, emptying and breathing, there is being in the now and eventually the dissolving of self in the battery acid of pure being. but first there is quiet and in the quiet I am introspective I have a pen in my hand. remove the pen and I will have a guitar but to sit here, empty-handed? tomorrow I will meditate.
Steve Shepherd writes poems and takes photographs. He used to make radio programmes, mostly jazz.